Love. What is Love ? Love in the Oxford dictionary is defined as having a strong feeling of affection towards someone. Its is definitely a feeling that everyone has experienced, no matter how much or how little. Love is a feeling that everyone yearns for. They want, to love, to be loved and the list just goes on. But how can this feeling be quantified ? Some people seem to be so casual with it, yet others get distraught over a failed relationship. Yet this feeling is often only described with a single word regardless of its so called intensity. There is no I lover her, nor is there a I lovest her.
To me, love is feeling that takes time to sink in. Thus the phrase love at first sight is total bullcrap to me. Love to me is a sense of responsibility, a place where you have to put yourself no matter the situation, to think about the other half before yourself. So often whenever we are overwhelmed by the shit the world gives us we build up walls to keep people out. We then forget that these people who are so close to our hearts are locked out too. How would that make them feel ?
Lately, I feel like a total mess. My perfect world seem to have made a 180 degrees turn, spinning everything upside down, mixing all these different problems and feelings inside out. I made the mistake of building walls up, thinking I need space, I need some time to be away. I only focused on the I, me, myself that i failed to see how much my actions were hurting her. How these problems that i am facing are also affecting her too. I mean, how could I have been so selfish yet I tell her everyday that I love her.
I think I need a new perspective to what love means. I need to start appreciating the things I have instead of focusing on what I don't have. I need to do something before it's too late. So.. What is Love ?
When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the rock that is higher than I
Psalm 61:2
